But virtually, yes . . . yes I did.
Below, I've inserted a clear visual of what sort of happened . . . .
Now, allow me to let you in on a few things that led to the fall...
1.) That one book I told ya'll I was working on (you know the one that was going to be a series?) I probably haven't worked on that since April.
2.) I managed to get two new jobs.
3.) I fell in love . . . ha, just kidding.
4.) I've been watching a lot of TV shows on Netflix. (Supernatural, Scandal...)
5.) And also, I have two nephews. That's enough to make me quit just about anything.
I'd like to believe that it was a mixture of these things that made me realize that what I was writing wasn't appealing to me.
In fact, I kept asking myself, "What if no one likes this? Who am I trying to portray...and really, Britney, do you think that's a good idea?"
I know I can be hard on myself--I am truly my own worst enemy--but if I'm psyched about a book idea, I take it and run until it's finished.
So this summer when I began a new manuscript for a different story, I was pumped . . . at first. It happened slowly, and then all at once, like a rush of water. Then I wasn't excited about it anymore.
I couldn't write.
Naturally, I thought it was writer's block. But after a few months of letting it sit, I quickly realized that it wasn't that. This manuscript was more like a diary, so it was easier to write. I wrote about 30,000 words total--20,000 shy from a novella.
I had a game plan--I wanted to get it finished--but, I wasn't in love with it.
There was no spark.
The characters made me smile, but the story-line was saddening.
So I deleted it. Crazy, right?
Okay, okay. I didn't actually "delete" the story, I still have the rough outline. But, from that outline, I found a story within a story, still allowing me to use the characters I love.
Basically, what I'm getting at here is that there are benefits from starting over. Obviously, starting over from scratch is a bit drastic, but if it works, it works--and it worked for me.
Maybe you could benefit from deleting your manuscript, too? As Hemingway once said, "The first draft of anything is...." fill in the blank.
(Hint: a four letter word that rhymes with kick...)
I hope all is well.
Ha, till next time blog world!
Over and out.